Hello world, I am a first-year PhD student looking into rainforest ecology.
I often find myself questioning why I am doing my PhD. Some might say this it is normal to question what you are doing, list the pros and cons of continuing and make a decision. However, I question myself on a daily basis, sometimes several times a day. I feel as if this is a little bit more often than usual.
I am constantly reminded that I face many challenges in my career, especially going into academia.
- I come from a low socioeconomic background,
- I am the first in my family to complete any university degree,
- I get regular migraines,
- I am a partial carer for disabled adults in my family,
- I am diagnosed as being on the Autism spectrum,
- I have Generalized anxiety disorder,
- I am known to get depression,
- and there is ADHD in my family, so I likely have some of these traits as well.
Despite all of this I also know that these challenges won't go away and my questioning of what I'm doing will remain regardless of what I am actually doing.
I am starting this blog as a way to acknowledge and recognise what is going on inside my head, and to help me work through, what I will likely refer to as 'my madness' in future posts.
I used to blog as a teenager and in my early 20's and found it helped me to process things and to stop bottling it up inside.
So here's to my early-mid 30's self-help blog?
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