is this normal for a panic attack?

 Okay then, so it's been what... 10 months since I posted? Did I die? Well... in a way I did.

I'm not going to recap the past year for you, let's just say it was pretty bad. I took a leave of absence for 3 months during that time, but that didn't stop the bad things from happening. Regardless, I am here now.

It's a new year now, and there a bunch of new problems to add onto the old! 

Here's somewhat good news: I've been accepted to present a poster at a conference in Spain in March. 

Here's the bad news: I had a panic attack about it yesterday. 

It was quite interesting how well I do at holding myself together when I need to. I just finished my physio appointment (I'll come back to this bit) and I checked my emails on my phone and again had my university paperwork about the Spain trip sent back to me, for even more amendments. The plan was going to be go to the local library for the rest of the day to work, I did however leave something I wanted to work on at home, so I went back to get it. So I drove home, walked into my room, curled up on my bed and began my panic attack. Yes, I knew the admin side of this trip has been giving me anxiety, but no I did not know I was going to start crying, have a rapid heartbeat, and shallow breaths. In that moment (of unknown time) I just wanted to quit, going to Spain is just to much work and it's not worth it. To calm myself I started colouring in on my phone and then I fell asleep. Next thing I know most of the day is gone.